My search for explanations, cures or even temporary relief never ceased until relatively recently when I finally grasped that shutting down when overloaded, in whatever way, was just how I operated/survived. Having accepted this, I stopped being in conflict with myself. Better still I stopped read more

When I was really ill and in unbearable pain, I sometimes asked my GP for morphine. He always refused. Then I read about a woman in Glasgow who died an hour after being given a morphine injection; she had been given 20 times the dose. read more

I enter my other world where pain – a brutal sun – rises so slowly I hardly know its pointless orbit has begun Then – too late – it floods my landscape. Higher, harsher more violent rays find my soul and all dreams die I read more